Our Sock Family.

Here is our family as sock people. These were a Christmas present I made for Chris to set on his desk. They are hand sewn and most are made out of two socks and some scraps I had in my collection. The body and hood are from one sock and the face is from another. The accents on Chris and I are from scraps. Baby sock is made out of just that-a baby sock! :) They were a lot of fun for me to make while I was pregnant and relaxing while I would wait for Chris to get home from work at night. I didn't know what color the baby's eyes were going to be so he has black buttons for his eyes. Anyway, just some fun :).

Birth Control.

Such a controversial topic and yet it goes by as normal from doctors and many people. Yet, it is not discussed much in the "Christian circle". It seems that many topics related to life after marriage are not discussed much which leaves me wondering what other people think and do about things-many topics in general. So here is one I have been thinking about...

What to do about it? What to think about it? This has been a thought-provoker and a struggle for us as we have tried to decide what our stand is on it. Last spring I got the book, "The Contraception Guidebook: Options, Risks, and Answers for Christian Couples." I would recommend this for anyone who is trying to research the different options out there about birth control.
I am stuck trying to figure out what is best and what is right. We know that we do not want to have more children at least for a couple years to let the boys grow, give my body some time to go back to normal-physically and emotionally, and save up more money to be able to provide for a larger family. However, what do we do?

 I have researched the different methods and although hormonal methods are the most common and most effective, it makes me sick thinking about taking it. (I am currently taking the mini-pill since I am nursing.) The reason it makes me sick thinking about it is because what they don't tell you often is that there are three ways it works and the third is the changing of the lining of the uterus. Which means it makes it a hostile environment so a fertilized egg cannot implant.  It is stated so simply. A fertilized egg cannot implant. I believe a life begins at conception and if something I am taking makes my body reject a fertilized egg, I am losing a child without even knowing it. It is so awful to even think about. Yet, what other options are there. I have researched the charting method, however with being pregnant or nursing since December 2007, it makes that a little difficult because there is nothing to go off of for detecting a change. I know there are people out there that will say to put it in God's hands, however, if we do not use a form of birth control, we will get pregnant: ie Logan. I was even on the pill when I got pregnant with Roman. That situation proves to me that if God wants a life, it will happen. However it is still a difficult topic. I am in a quandary. The guarantee of some options to not get pregnant for 3 or 5 years sounds very appealing, but the side affects do not and they also thin the lining of the uterus.

So my question to you is: What is your opinion on the subject?

^{Luke 23:28-29
28}Jesus turned and said to them, "Daughters of Jerusalem, do not weep for me; weep for yourselves and for your children. ²⁹For the time will come when you will say, 'Blessed are the barren women, the wombs that never bore and the breasts that never nursed!' ³⁰

A sad picture of what is happening in our society.

The Lord Builds the House.

On my mind...

These are just some verses on children that I have looked up-they were actually in the stack of cards that I took with me into labor and delivery with Logan-I have had these thoughts on my mind the past few days and thought I would journal about it.

Psalm 127: 1-5

 Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep. Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.

John 16:21

When a woman is giving birth, she has sorrow because her hour has come, but when she has delivered the baby, she no longer remembers the anguish, for joy that a human being has been born into the world.

Psalm 139:13-16

For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.

Ecclesiastes 11:5

As you do not know the way the spirit comes to the bones in the womb of a woman with child, so you do not know the work of God who makes everything.

Today I am frustrated as I remember times when we were criticized for having our children; criticized by people who are in the Church. It was very hurtful to us when we were at a time when we were very excited about the new life and potential to be criticized about something that was our decision. With Roman, it was that we were "too early" into our marriage relationship to become pregnant according to their standards. (We had been married six months when we found out we were pregnant.) Although Roman was not planned by us, he was planned by God and is not a mistake. With Logan, it was "too soon" after having our first child to be pregnant again. "What were we thinking?" We did plan on having Logan. We wanted our children to be close in age so they can have a close bond and friendship as they grow together. Also, last time I checked, it wasn't that unusual to have children a year and a half apart? I believe children are a blessing and should be celebrated for their new life, regardless of the situation into which they are born. Why criticize about a pregnancy when there is all ready a person growing? It saddens me that people that profess to be Christians could think bringing a child into a loving marriage should be looked down upon. This upset us greatly.I would not change one minute of having my boys for one without them being here. They are wonderful. Yes, there are stressful times, but it is worth having them!

 

What is wrong with the Church? Where are the genuine believers? I know there are genuine people in the Church, however, it seems like more and more it is being taken over by hypocrites; people who only care what people think of them and how they appear. They show up to church every Sunday with a smile on their face and wearing their nice clothes while their lives away from church are not matching up. Prayer requests become gossips and people that are truly hurting inside, don't get help because they are afraid of what people will think of them if they share what is really going on in their life. The sad thing is that the people who have treated me the worst in my life have been professing Christians. In these situations I trusted these people and they were hateful and deceitful and the bridges that were part of those relationships were burned. What is going on here? I'm tired of lukewarm living-around me and also in my life.

 

I'm not saying that we are the perfect Christians or anything close. In fact, we have been struggling with wanting to go to church for these reasons. We want something genuine; something real. We haven't found a church that feels genuine yet; that is not putting on a show. It is also hard to go visit new churches not knowing who will be working in the nursery or how safe the nursery procedures are for our kids. We have just been doing our own thing at home lately. We are going to a church with some friends this weekend and I am excited about it. Also just excited to spend some time with some new friends!